Fault In My Stars

During the rush hours I found you with a smile on your face that I could not resist...
During the rush hours I found you staring with those beautiful eyes I could hold on for and persist...
There was never a hurry and we let it go slow,but never expected to get a hard knock out blow..
Love made a difference I stopped my rush hour beat and followed your footsteps hypnotized with lies on the back seat
Cravings were many but you let it dump,did you know I had a cold heart which once gain you tried to pump?
Now annoyance I have to store in that frozen moment which you shared with me,it means nothing but yet your desire to live with everyone else in the same way,you shared the same love with the rest not just me..
I prayed for honesty and loyalty from that person I had once seen ,but you just managed it quiet well to shatter all my dreams...
I no longer have the urge to love as it is fault in my stars...

By Sonika Lotliker

I MiSs My GlOw

Your fragrance,your touch the air you blow to me is all that I miss,I really miss the glow...

The perfume you sprayed the hand-wash you used are the best ways to feel that your around always glued...

I drink wine ,the best wine available but none can beat the flavor of your lips...

I ride in the dark to places we have been but just return with a smile embracing the breeze..

And when there are days i terribly miss you I just pretend to talk to the walls or send messages and save in drafts...And when there are days I terribly want you I just watch the moon thinking you would do the same when you want me the most...

DarK CloUds Of REalitY

I'm alone in this world and will go alone,for there is nobody of that courage to give me company..
So many questions and blunders  around in my mind ...
Have I done some special course or am I a question bank?
I see so many questions and,connections of past showing negativity and still I ignore and positive is what I wish to see...
I discovered that meeting new people and exchanging views is not so bad but seeking love in everybody is a big crime...
So much that it is waiting to bring me down and praise me unnecessarily I feel...
Just coz I am too easy going with world views or am I a forehead written monkey..?
Translucent is my life and I continue to live the way it is..
Coz I'm not expecting much from nobody ...absolutely nobody...
I will not even blame anyone for not being there when I'm in severe or even mild pain..
As I'm alone in this world and will go alone,for there is nobody of that courage to give me company..
So many questions and blunders  around in my mind ...

Screech Of My End -poem

Screech Of My End

Lies have learnt new ways to try,blind faith has learnt to believe as truth this try...

Don't make this a guilt I called for it,for trust so blind was absolutely unhealthy

You tried your best to cement your lies and so my trust began to fade..

What is wrong you have asked several times with innocence filled in those not guilty eyes 

I wish to answer but how can I as this state of ours has made me weak...

I tried to forget I tried to ignore had become blind to all what is going on ,but for how long can I lie to myself that love shown to me was also felt by someone else...

May be I failed may be I tried to much that is the reason faded that feeling of love..

I cant take this anymore I had my share of tears now its only screech from my end and ineffectiveness from yours...

By: Sonika.R.Lotliker

Just When I -poem

Just When I -poem

 Just when I….

It’s that breath I miss, it’s the bad nightmare I suddenly wake-up with, it’s that sudden jerk from a stranger I feel just when I am drowned in those ugly thoughts of past that disturbed and future that will tear apart….

Growing in silence has made me stronger but till when that I want to burst out and nobody to give shoulder..Everyone gone away in darkness, something that I left them with along with a mute band on my face when questions asked….

Palaces of my dreams were haunting my smile and so were those faces who betrayed me once so then what was the right choice to make, I questioned till I got lost in them and returned back to reality that it’s my fault..That silence I used to make me strong….

Peace was just within somewhere hidden in my childhood now it was shattering that innocence I still preserved till I was protected by insulation of silence…

Why did I never want to break hearts, really..Even when nobody really gave a damn to my deeds..Scaring that child in me by warnings to lose love or even relations …

Have I created myself this way or am I born to be this way, reality has slapped me so many times and just when I want to give it back the silence again insulates me within….

By:Sonika..Lotliker