Drifted away from waves of reality

She just  drifted apart from the waves of reality ….

Carrying her loaded bag full of queries and despair she cared no more to the pretentious world

Blinded to the love she had for him she opened herself to that man who in life made her dead soul

No tears did not help this journey which made flashes of her self made destruction repeat channel

When told that she was wrong she felt right and when right happened she always had a doubt

Fantasies bloomed when she did not feel the need and transpired when she wanted it

Weeping with happiness and holding on to those faint stars all she felt was desolated

Dancing to the fine tunes of love she neglected that unworthy,so forgiving so loving

He saw it he loved it he made no efforts coz end of the day she meant nothing but just another whore

Whispers that brought shivers down spine were actually warnings of tremors to future

She felt no pain she felt no touch all she felt was nothing

He broke her into millions of pieces and cared no longer coz he had a replacement but she smiled and loved him with no expectations

She just drifted apart from the waves of reality

Sonika Lotliker 

 

Clustered Feelings!!!

When she stopped loving she was loved ,when she stopped showing it showered

What happened so special or was she herself magical to experience these clustered feelings 

When she tried so hard it was difficult ,when she did not it got so easy

What happened so special or was she herself magical to experience these clustered feelings

This never happened before,that breath was never heard before,that touch was never felt before 

that kiss was never longed for before,that heartbeat never accelerated so much before...

What happened so special or was she herself magical to experience these clustered feelings

She dissolved in those tunes free from this world free from existence,she found a new world she could hide into,be herself and play like a kid whenever and forget desires of rest and pursue hers...

What happened so special or was she herself magical to experience these clustered feelings

Suddenly the boundaries around her melted when ardent eyes looked at her in flood of bliss,she barely felt tied up and anchored to  what she never wanted....

What happened so special or was she herself magical to experience these clustered feelings

She was afraid to open her eyes for bitter goodbyes but now she emancipated herself from herself and all around who pulled her down...

What happened so special or was she herself magical to experience these clustered feelings

---Sonika Lotliker

All about us or just you ?

When I was young soft as clay which you could mould, you held my hand and showed me our 

world ...

When I was young soft as clay which you could mould ,you looked in my eyes and promised me a future ...

You left suddenly ,you betrayed intentionally you bruised me knowingly I was less important heartlessly,what happened?

You broke my heart and laughed at the fallen pieces like you did not care , what happened?

You let me go away from you like I was never wanted by you , what happened?

My tears which bothered you once,now got you irritated,what happened ?

You suddenly decided that my happiness would be without you without asking me,without knowing what would I feel ,what happened?

The light in shadows disappeared ,the rainbow in summers cleared,the smile on my face vanished and all you did was say nothing and waited  ...

Awkward would have been that stage for you if I left the way you did and behave the way you did but all I did was continue loving you...

I am still soft clay that could be moulded easily just that I don't understand if it was all about us or just you...

                                                                                  ---Sonika R Lotliker

UNWRAPPED

She could barely feel those chills left by the men’s roar; she could hardly shed any tears caused by the demon in him stored...

Sealed body she protected all her life was quickly unwrapped by those selfish eyes...

She did not give an invite, she did not provoke too then how did he not control himself and take her body like a playful joke?

Was she at fault because she wore short skirts at strappy tops?

Oh by the way when he pushed himself on her she was covered top to toe

Couldn’t he feel the pain she took to preserve herself for that special one to invade her and unite with her?

Couldn’t he feel what he was doing was morally wrong and his way to show his power and dominance just took away her innocence her inner core?

How did they reach here, to a level dropped so badly where even animals seem superior

How did they forget to respect each other and drain down principles of humanity and raise illegal signs so blur

For what the state is today it only shows our growing hopeless future

                                                                                   --SONIKA .R.LOTLIKER

SILENT DREAMS AND SCREAMS !!!

My silence will scream and I know you will not hear ...
My inner child will dream and I know you will not care ...
I love you I really do and for what I am today is a result which is already proved '
Careless to the world I only thought about you ...
Deaf ear to the world I only have your voice echo...
Small heart or big I cannot really judge as by size it is small but your room is luxurious ...
Holding on to myself for decisions which are wrong I feel lost and cry but silently whisper only your name ...
I might have failed to serve you the best but lover as I call myself I deserve no pain ...
Dead inside dead outside now,as your not with me but your existence is lifelong engraved in my heart...
Don't know if I did justice as a good partner ,don't know if all that mattered to you was only me or not
All I know is that I have not imagined this life to be without you ...
But reality is ...
My silence will scream and I know you will not hear...
My inner child will dream and I know you will not Care...